janita_adja

i said love was something unpredictable and unbelievable.. who knew i could fall in love someone adored by hundreds or even could be thousands of the girls in my place.. he’s adorable, I admit.. handsome, tall, smart, and kind of gentleman. I knew he’s so far so i can’t reach out of him.. by age, even further..
who knew i could fall in love with someone in thirty’s without knowing he had married or not.. someone who loves writing poems –especially love ones– which is in my rational love, a guy like isn’t even considered as my type..

who knew..
oh God..
is this what U mean love?!
it won’t be happy-ending, i knew it..
he even doesn’t recognize me..

oh God..
what is Ur plan to me?
should i be more patient or just give him up?

oh God..
how could i bear this feeling..
it hurts me so deep..
it’s sick..
it feels like hell..
if I had lost my mind, i might have come to him and say this..

hi.. Mr. ___ I’m janita.. ur ______
i know u don’t know me but i know u
and i just wanna say i love u and u know?
i want u to be my husband..
would u marry me?

i know it sounds crazy, imbisile and even so cheap..
but like i said before, it will occure if only i had lost my mind.

so..
is there anyone who can help me?
someone I can share with?